The Secret of Priestly Holiness

Crucifixion at Subiaco.jpgPhotographs at Subiaco (2011) by Dom Benedict Maria Anderson, O.S.B.

I have so much to tell you and, at the same time, all that you need to know . . . is already given to you in the Gospel of Saint John, the friend of my Heart. Yes, I have called you to become another John. I want you to gaze upon my Face with all the tenderness and adoration that the Holy Spirit gave him during the years he spent in my company. John on the Heart of Jesus (Subiaco).jpgEven after my Ascension he discerned my abiding presence in the Sacrament of my Love and learned to contemplate there the glory of my Eucharistic Face.

John was the friend of my Heart. When he saw my Heart pierced on Calvary, his own heart was pierced too. This created between him and my Most Holy Mother the deepest of bonds.

This it was that sealed the covenant of filial and maternal love that I established between them by the virtue of my words from the Cross. It was this that made their life together after the birth of my Church at Pentecost a model of perfect unity and of burning charity.

John and Mary together graced the Church by living in fidelity to the words I spoke from the Cross and by abiding in the mystery of my pierced Heart. Their own hearts — the Immaculate Heart of the Mother and the pure heart of the son — were a single channel of mercy and of light for souls.

I want it to be the same for you and for all my priests in their relationship to my Most Holy Mother. Allow your heart to be pierced as was hers on Calvary. Thus will your heart be united to mine through hers. John's heart was mystically pierced when he saw blood and water gush forth from my side. Your heart will be pierced in the mystery of the Most Holy Eucharist, not only when you stand at the altar to offer me to my Father, but also when you remain in my presence, seeking my Eucharistic Face, eager to receive my instructions, and allowing me to reshape you into the priest I have, from the beginning, wanted you to be.

The piercing of your own heart will not be in a single thrust. It will be a work of my grace and an intimate, even hidden, action of the Holy Spirit. You will know that your own heart has been pierced when you begin to experience a continual and sweet union with the Heart of my Mother and with my own Sacred Heart. This I will do for you, but I desire to work the same grace in the souls of all my priests.

Even in the beginning, I wanted my friendship with John to serve as a model for the other apostles. I will not refuse the intimate friendship of my Heart to the priests I have chosen for myself. This is the secret of priestly holiness: union with my Eucharistic Heart through the pierced Heart of my Mother and of yours, the Blessed Virgin Mary.

(From In Sinu Iesu, The Journal of A Priest)